You hate what I said to you
I hate how I said it
But the truth was too close
To ignore it. To run from it.
I hate what you do
That no one stands near me
When I stand up
Only adds to my discomposure
But in need of strength
I won't sit back down
You love what you do
That no one tells you your wrong
Especially when you are
They close their eyes, and staple their tongues
Except when it directly impacts them
Then everyone rallies around them
Including me
But when your wrong and it impacts me
Everyone flees
Everyone leaves me
Everyone hates me
Can't stand me
Leaves fate to me
Disrespect who I am
For who I am not
Because they can't see me being who I say I want to be.
Truthfully I can't see it either
But I can't see myself
Being who you want me to be
Being who you see me being
Doubt you see me at all
Doubt they see me at all
Know they would rather not
& I don't blame them
My delivery is all wrong
Your actions wronger
Why am I surprised though?
I only remember being pushed away
Never hugged closer
Compared to my father
Never a woman...
&When I try to be a woman
Lights out
Say goodnight
No one wants you around
Get it through your mind.
Get it through your mind.
Get it through your mind
Get it through your mind.
Only god and yourself.
See heaven and god in yourself.
Don't fear or show how you really feel.
Just love yourself...
It won't be long before someone does too...
Women need admiration
but not as much as they need love...
It's okay to cry and feel this way. Just clean up when your done. Leave no evidence of your fallen heart.
Don't look down, just stand up
I decide who I'm gonna be
I lied to myself, I've given enough
I can't hide behind my fear of flying
Don't hide. Love yourself.
~~Love me~~
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Monday, June 21, 2010
Natural beauty
when u are natural people stare.
But they are only looking for your smile and a signal that its ok to love ur natural beauty too.
Thats what I think.
when u look closely they are a mess of tiny little curls.
Like tiny little blessings they can be misleading and upon an uncareful glance can be dismissed as a mat of failure.
But when you take it and stretch it you see they are spirals of beauty and wisdom and tall like pillars of faith.
Then when you let it go like magic it snaps back almost to the same position it used to be in but standing much taller and proud.
Some people will hate it for the difference it takes to their baneness.
Thats when its up to you to know that your natural beauty is beautiful especially because its different.
Go in your mirror.
Are you ugly?
Smile.
Are you ugly?
Smile for real.
Are you ugly?
Smile until you laugh.
Are you ugly?
Think about your heart what's in it?
Are you ugly?
Feel your heart, who's in it?
Are you ugly?
Think about your future. How do you see you in it?
Are you ugly?
If not, then your only option is to laugh at others when they say you are. Because it's hilarious that they can't see natural;true beauty like you can.
I wore my hair in an afro yesterday.
Peaked some curiousity, startled some poodles and shih zu's, angered some pidgeons and hawks, delighted most other beautiful creatures, inspired some conversation.
But the most important impact was that I made me happy.
How was your natural day today?
But they are only looking for your smile and a signal that its ok to love ur natural beauty too.
Thats what I think.
when u look closely they are a mess of tiny little curls.
Like tiny little blessings they can be misleading and upon an uncareful glance can be dismissed as a mat of failure.
But when you take it and stretch it you see they are spirals of beauty and wisdom and tall like pillars of faith.
Then when you let it go like magic it snaps back almost to the same position it used to be in but standing much taller and proud.
Some people will hate it for the difference it takes to their baneness.
Thats when its up to you to know that your natural beauty is beautiful especially because its different.
Go in your mirror.
Are you ugly?
Smile.
Are you ugly?
Smile for real.
Are you ugly?
Smile until you laugh.
Are you ugly?
Think about your heart what's in it?
Are you ugly?
Feel your heart, who's in it?
Are you ugly?
Think about your future. How do you see you in it?
Are you ugly?
If not, then your only option is to laugh at others when they say you are. Because it's hilarious that they can't see natural;true beauty like you can.
I wore my hair in an afro yesterday.
Peaked some curiousity, startled some poodles and shih zu's, angered some pidgeons and hawks, delighted most other beautiful creatures, inspired some conversation.
But the most important impact was that I made me happy.
How was your natural day today?
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Good men and you (my philosophy)
Seek beauty and strength and a good man will seek you.
Be beautiful and strong and a good man will want to be with you.
Stay beautiful and stong and you will keep that good man there with you.
True love happens with yourself and god first.
Be beautiful and strong and a good man will want to be with you.
Stay beautiful and stong and you will keep that good man there with you.
True love happens with yourself and god first.
Monday, June 14, 2010
Simple
genuine in my conquest to better myself
I will not complain even under great stress
I will just keep trying and searching and narrowing
until I find what I'm looking for.
I will not complain even under great stress
I will just keep trying and searching and narrowing
until I find what I'm looking for.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Never be ANGRY again
Simple way to control the most harboring and draining emotions.
Define anger as making unreasonable demands about the present.
And alter one's own reaction into something more constructive.
I read this on a forum. It's simplicity is what makes me see it's truth.
Define anger as making unreasonable demands about the present.
And alter one's own reaction into something more constructive.
I read this on a forum. It's simplicity is what makes me see it's truth.
Femininity.
I am on a road of self growth and re-learning self love for what it is and not what others want me to believe it is.
This is why I chose the name Whimsical to write under.
I am constantly changing in the hopes of being better today than I was yesterday.
I am on a road
sometimes it is dark and lonely
and I only want to lay down i defeat
other times it is lit with hope
and I find a friend in even the simplest of things
Like the sky and trees, the birds and the bees
I feel wonderful and excited to be me
And this is how I always want it to be.
I always want to feel wonderful and excited to be living my life and in my body and to have my mind. Wonderful to be me.
That is why as of lately I have been studying the art of being feminine. I came across several blogs that have joined a movement to empower femininity.
here is the mission statement:
Our Mission:
To encourage, inspire, and challenge young ladies to rediscover the treasure of dressing in a feminine manner. So we may be an example in a world where true beauty has been lost – in a world where beauty is defined by the culture. We hope to convey a message that true beauty is an inward appearance of the heart and spirit that is shown outwardly in dressing in a manner that is and directs all radiance and honour to our Maker, and not one for self-gain.
I am in full support of this and in of this wagon.
It is truly a beautiful thing to soften your mind and heart to aim to encourage and inspire anyone.
It feels amazing when you soften your being and allow yourself to be the way you were meant to be as a woman.
The opposite of a man.
An inspiration for improvement and love and care.
It feels amazing to accept it.
Beautiful beings
us creatures of enviable features
Us worthy of love and satisfaction
Givers of subtle touches and soft kisses
Remnants of gifts to man from the lord
Beautiful souls
We have; avatars of the lords love
creators of softness and appreciation
Admiration and fulfillment
We must be fulfilled through the lord and through our natural contradiction to the aggravation of being a man.
And realize that being feminine doesn't mean being weak and submissive or less than.
It just means being a woman and unafraid to 'play' that role but be what we were meant to be which is everything that man is and everything that man cannot be.
This is why I chose the name Whimsical to write under.
I am constantly changing in the hopes of being better today than I was yesterday.
I am on a road
sometimes it is dark and lonely
and I only want to lay down i defeat
other times it is lit with hope
and I find a friend in even the simplest of things
Like the sky and trees, the birds and the bees
I feel wonderful and excited to be me
And this is how I always want it to be.
I always want to feel wonderful and excited to be living my life and in my body and to have my mind. Wonderful to be me.
That is why as of lately I have been studying the art of being feminine. I came across several blogs that have joined a movement to empower femininity.
here is the mission statement:
Our Mission:
To encourage, inspire, and challenge young ladies to rediscover the treasure of dressing in a feminine manner. So we may be an example in a world where true beauty has been lost – in a world where beauty is defined by the culture. We hope to convey a message that true beauty is an inward appearance of the heart and spirit that is shown outwardly in dressing in a manner that is and directs all radiance and honour to our Maker, and not one for self-gain.
I am in full support of this and in of this wagon.
It is truly a beautiful thing to soften your mind and heart to aim to encourage and inspire anyone.
It feels amazing when you soften your being and allow yourself to be the way you were meant to be as a woman.
The opposite of a man.
An inspiration for improvement and love and care.
It feels amazing to accept it.
Beautiful beings
us creatures of enviable features
Us worthy of love and satisfaction
Givers of subtle touches and soft kisses
Remnants of gifts to man from the lord
Beautiful souls
We have; avatars of the lords love
creators of softness and appreciation
Admiration and fulfillment
We must be fulfilled through the lord and through our natural contradiction to the aggravation of being a man.
And realize that being feminine doesn't mean being weak and submissive or less than.
It just means being a woman and unafraid to 'play' that role but be what we were meant to be which is everything that man is and everything that man cannot be.
- An avatar of the lord's love and key to survival in this world.
- A comfort to the fear of our men and children and show and guide them in the way of the lord.
--So I believe and I will be applying this belief to my life.
yes I'm 5'7 but you will catch me in a dress and some heels just to sit outside and read.- I will be fearless in displaying my grace, humblness, and womanhood.
female
feminity is the sensuality
that makes skin soft
and gleam in one's eyes
that makes everything seem alright.
that makes skin soft
and gleam in one's eyes
that makes everything seem alright.
I've
just been listening to some of the most beautiful music I have a feeling was ever made. Last song was Jhene Aiko- Summertime.
I love when I listen to something and it makes me feel light and feathery and feminine and happy.
I've also been lazy. I haven't worked out in months and now I have a small gut and flimsy arms. Not a good look for an ex-yoga/pilates body.
So when I get off of the computer I will be putting my body to the test.
Let's see if it remembers how those long stretches feel.
When summer turns into fall
I feel my heart begin
Life comes back when
Nature goes back and
I feel amazing
The wind is giving sweet kisses
and the sun is not assaulting its hiding
and the leaves match my skin
and the grass no longer needs to be cut
And love is better made on a whim
Outside on the blushing tree trims
or in the rain. especially then
When summer turns into fall
when our bodies are hot and
the water crystals that fall
are cold .
I love when I listen to something and it makes me feel light and feathery and feminine and happy.
I've also been lazy. I haven't worked out in months and now I have a small gut and flimsy arms. Not a good look for an ex-yoga/pilates body.
So when I get off of the computer I will be putting my body to the test.
Let's see if it remembers how those long stretches feel.
When summer turns into fall
I feel my heart begin
Life comes back when
Nature goes back and
I feel amazing
The wind is giving sweet kisses
and the sun is not assaulting its hiding
and the leaves match my skin
and the grass no longer needs to be cut
And love is better made on a whim
Outside on the blushing tree trims
or in the rain. especially then
When summer turns into fall
when our bodies are hot and
the water crystals that fall
are cold .
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