Honestly

You hate what I said to you
I hate how I said it
But the truth was too close
To ignore it. To run from it.

I hate what you do
That no one stands near me
When I stand up
Only adds to my discomposure
But in need of strength
I won't sit back down

You love what you do
That no one tells you your wrong
Especially when you are
They close their eyes, and staple their tongues
Except when it directly impacts them
Then everyone rallies around them
Including me

But when your wrong and it impacts me
Everyone flees
Everyone leaves me
Everyone hates me
Can't stand me
Leaves fate to me

Disrespect who I am
For who I am not
Because they can't see me being who I say I want to be.

Truthfully I can't see it either
But I can't see myself
Being who you want me to be
Being who you see me being
Doubt you see me at all

Doubt they see me at all
Know they would rather not
& I don't blame them
My delivery is all wrong
Your actions wronger

Why am I surprised though?
I only remember being pushed away
Never hugged closer
Compared to my father
Never a woman...
&When I try to be a woman
Lights out
Say goodnight
No one wants you around
Get it through your mind.
Get it through your mind.
Get it through your mind
Get it through your mind.

Only god and yourself.
See heaven and god in yourself.
Don't fear or show how you really feel.
Just love yourself...
It won't be long before someone does too...



Women need admiration
but not as much as they need love...



It's okay to cry and feel this way. Just clean up when your done. Leave no evidence of your fallen heart.



Don't look down, just stand up
I decide who I'm gonna be
I lied to myself, I've given enough
I can't hide behind my fear of flying

Don't hide. Love yourself.

~~Love me~~